Extraordinary Grace

Extraordinary afflictions are not always the punishment for extraordinary sins, but sometimes the trial of extraordinary graces…

I posted this quote 10 years ago on Facebook, yet I feel it more deeply today than I did then.

Recently, I found out something that has shattered my sense of wholeness. Something that I didn’t see coming. Something that has challenged me in a way I do not know how to respond.

Life sucks sometimes. People suck sometimes. And sometimes it’s not on you. Sometimes things happen and people hurt you just because they do. When you have given them your all and they chose to not accept it. And you feel, sometimes, you are not enough.

Sometimes, people betray the trust and love you have given so freely. Who knows why. It may be because they do not love themselves. And it is in those moments, days, and weeks, grace is needed more than you feel you have to afford. And you somehow have to learn the grace that comes from a place you don’t own for yourself.

Sometimes, you have to give an extraordinary amount of grace. Not because of your love for them. But because of His love for you.

Sometimes, you have to find the grace to walk into another kind of extraordinary grace. Which is where I am today… Stuggling to find the grace I need for myself, to remember the grace He so freely gave, so as to give the grace I do not have to give.

Sometimes, His grace has to be enough.