Lucky Numbers

I’ve always said 13 was my lucky number. I know it’s weird. Who likes 13?! Well… me. Yet, as I began writing this blog, I began reconsidering…

I wasn’t raised believing in luck and fairytales. Quite the opposite actually. Fire and brimstone. Death and destruction. The end of all things… I was never taught about true and unconditional love.

Enter Jesus…

Just a few days before my 21st birthday, I was introduced to The One who would love me forever. Truly and unconditionally. He changed my world, my future and my understanding of what love is.

We lived in our blissful relationship, just the two of us. It wasn’t always perfect, because I am not. But I had never known love like that before Him. I had never believed I deserved that kind of love. But it was mine. All mine. My very own fairytale.

I was totally content. Happy even. Just me and Him. Him and me. I didn’t have to fully open myself up to loving another, because I had love. I was always able to walk away from human love because it just didn’t compare. And His love for me was more than enough, so I was good.

But He knew my heart. He heard my prayers. As much as I was happy to call on Him as my husband, He knew I would need someone in human form. He knew I would need someone to live in His love for. Someone to share His love with. Someone to show His love to.

It’s crazy how one can spend so much of life believing something that’s not really truth. And I did. Twice at least. Because as often as I write about them, I spent half of my life not believing in fairytales… And my lucky number is not 13 after all…

Because on the 21st day of the 21st year of the 21st century, God chose to reveal His greater love to me, with a man He chose for me, asking for my hand in marriage. A man who loves me truly and unconditionally… And this weekend, we will celebrate our first year of marriage. 💜

It isn’t always perfect, because we are not. But I had never known human love like this before him. I had never believed I deserved this kind of love. But it is mine. All mine. My very own fairytale in the flesh.

Lucky 21…. Who would have guessed?!