Gladiator Dreams

I want to inspire the world; Inspire them to be themselves, and inspire them to be a better version of themselves. I want to inspire the world!

This has always been a dream of mine since I was 16. A single mom… a child myself.  I had had more loss in my short life than most had ever experienced or will… And I wanted to inspire the world to rise above life and their circumstances. I just wanted to make a difference.

I was not something great. I always saw myself as less than. The girl who grew up in a cult, followed by a gang; a girl who just wanted to belong. A young girl who sat in the hall while the pledge was recited in the mornings, or Valentine’s cards were exchanged, or cupcakes were to be had for a birthday, or Christmas concerts…

I was alone… A little girl, stuck in the hallway… Alone. From the time I can remember, I was alone. 

And here I am, at the age of 42, alone again. But this time it’s different. 

I have spent the last three weeks in isolation and I can honestly say I am thankful. I am thankful for the time that, though I thought I had figured it out, I realize I really wasn’t fully being me, until now. I now have flowers on my bedroom wall. Flowers! I love flowers! And yet, I haven’t had a bedroom wall filled with flowers since I was a little girl. It may all be a little young-ish, but it feels right.

And inspirational quotes and verses are flooding my house walls again… This hasn’t happened in several years!

I have come so far! And I am finally coming back to me. The real me. The true me that I want to share with the world. And I am thankful. I am so thankful. And I want to share what I know, where I have been, and how to overcome, with the world… I want people to realize their true potential. I want people to realize their greatest selves. I want to inspire the world… It’s a dream that will not die until it is accomplished.

And God willing it will be. I am a gladiator after all. And this gladiator has a dream…