Dating 5.1

After months of purposefully not dating, I took the plunge last night and created an online profile, yet again. I can just see the number of people shaking their heads at me right now. But it’s okay.

Because I am me. I have spent countless nights dating myself and getting to know me. I like me. I know me. And I know I enjoy dating. I miss going out and meeting new people who don’t run in my circle. I miss learning about what makes others tick and hearing about paths and dreams that are different than mine.

And while I’m tons of fun, I’m bored. Why not spend a few evenings a week with handsome men doing those things I enjoy? So I kept my hands busy all evening chatting it up with a few potential dates.

I’m excited about the three that are currently scheduled to be honest. Yes, three. Don’t judge. I like having options, as my daughter pointed out the other night. And being I don’t know any of these men, it would be silly of me not to mass date right now, because who knows who they are when not behind a phone screen. And let’s be real here; it’s a date, not a commitment.

But I must say I had forgotten in the 20 months since I was last online just how much time it takes to BE online. I can sum it up in two words: exciting and exhausting.

Who knows what will come. But I’m not throwing in the towel just because I got hurt again and let’s be honest, will probably get hurt again. I’m okay with that. Love didn’t break me. Love didn’t leave me. Certain people did. I see that now. And hopefully, I will make better choices in men moving forward.

I want to live. And while sitting at home alone or eating out alone or going to the movies alone is great, it’s not my end game.

So I’m out there. With an open heart. Willing to lose and yet hopeful I won’t have to.

This is me! Wish me luck!!!!