A Happy Place

Have you ever been in a place in your life where you were truly happy?

I often hear people say ‘I will be happy when’… when I get a new job, when I make more money, when I get married, when I have kids, when I have grandkids even…

But have you ever just found yourself happy where you are?

About 7 weeks ago I decided to end a relationship with a man I had come to love. You’ve seen the blogs… He hadn’t necessarily done anything wrong, he just wasn’t doing everything right. And me being a perfectionist, and 100% in, what he was giving was just not enough for me…

So I burned the bridge and blocked him on every social media site and phone opportunity. I then went on a journey of the heart, to find out why it all happened, what it all meant, who I am now that it happened. I made it the 21 days, but I was not okay. I never thought I would miss someone so much. So on day 23 I decided to reach out and ask the question that was haunting me throughout it all… what happened?

I wasn’t prepared for his response… I figured, being the man he is, he would say something kind and apologize, but I never believed what that moment would turn into. He was not only kind, but he was and has been, the man I had fallen in love with. And for the past three weeks he has not deviated. Yet, something has changed. He is, for lack of a better word, better. He is better than what I had expected him to be in the beginning. And today, where we are, I have no doubts he loves me. He has proven this time and again. He didn’t give up on me. It’s not something I’ve ever had. And he is not someone I have ever loved.

I know that some may not approve of what I am saying right now, of what I am doing. But I have always been one who is quick to forgive when the apology is sincere, one that not only sees the good, but looks for it. I don’t know what tomorrow holds, but for today, I am enjoying living in the moment. And in this moment I am living, I am happy. This man makes me happy. And I have faith he is going to continue to make me happy.

Find the silver lining. Find the reason. Find your happy place. It’s not far off in some ‘when’. Your life is happening now. Never allow waiting to become a habit. Live your life. Take risks. Go be happy.

And please… be happy for me.