21 Days

It is said it takes 21 days to break a habit.

Making it through the first 7 to 10 days is a lot of trial and error. It’s hard to not do that thing you have come to enjoy doing, something that has become second nature, even if you haven’t been doing it but for a few months. Most people falter during this time and will have to begin again, because they have yet to replace that which they did, with something better. Which sucks, but it’s reality. Many often give up when they fail over and over to release that thing that has kept them bound. It’s the whole ‘one day at a time’ mantra. So you fall and start again at day 1.

But what happens when you make it to day 10 and the temptation feels even stronger than it did on day 1? And what about when day 14 hits and you feel no relief? You just want to do that thing that made you once feel so good… just one more time. But knowing that if you do that, you will eventually be back where you were and have to start all over…

It’s a vicious 21 day cycle.

I’m on day 17 of the cycle. And it sucks. But for me it’s not a substance or a bad habit that I am releasing. For me it is an attachment I have held for another. If I will break the habit, I will be able to find my healing.

It is what it is. But I’m going to make it through, and in the end I will be better for it… In 5 days… Or at least that’s what they say…