In the Waiting

One of my favorite definitions of the word ‘wait’ is to stay where one is or delay action until a particular time or until something else happens.

To stay where one is… I find myself being a person who gets so caught up trying to move forward, that sometimes I miss out on where I am. I am a progressive person. I enjoy bettering my self and my life. I enjoy making and then fighting to conquer my goals and dreams. I have been this way a long time.

Yet, sometimes God has other plans for me, plans that include me waiting. I have to say, I am not a very patient person and I suck at waiting, oftentimes causing an even greater delay of the outcome.

Sometimes I am just not ready. I want to be and even fight to be, but the truth is still the truth… Maybe it is because I’m a perfectionist, and perfect doesn’t exist. Maybe it is because I have tried to force a dream, yet my heart is not in it. Maybe it is because I have not yet embraced the healing that is to come to get me ready. So life throws us a curve ball that forces our delay.

And that is where I find myself today… Many of my faithful followers know that my debut novel was set to release in a few weeks, yet the twists and turns of life lately have led me out of a place of excitement into a place of unrest. So after a very long conversation with my publicist, it has been decided to delay the release of ‘Breathe‘ to December 6, which in itself is in fact, the perfect day.

It’s ironic to me that the title of my book is exactly what I need to be doing; to stay where I am, to be still and know, and to just breathe.

So this is where I am and where I will be… in the waiting.